M.B.B.Ch. Part I

So far so bad on my new year resolution. I kept it up for a lil while then I broke off. Bad bad me. Then about 3 months to my Part 1 M.B.B.Ch. examinations I picked up again. When I think about it that way, I feel really guilty

Anyway, MB’s gone now and I’m starting to slide again. Lord help me.

Speaking of MB, those were rough times...really. 3 weeks of all sorts of exams ranging from essays, MCQs, practicals and orals. I spent almost 1 year preparing for that exam, but when it came it was still like boy you ain’t started. You know that feeling you have in the pit of your stomach like there’s something you forgot to read

OK, day number 1 – Anatomy Essay (still had the feeling) 10 questions with subs to answer in 3 hrs. sounds cheap abi? But when you have to impress the lecturer marking your script, 3 hrs might seem like 3 mins. So I knew all the questions, well almost all but the 3hrs just wasn’t freaking OK. Anyway I attempted all. Guess that worked cos I passed.

Day number 2 – Biochemistry 2-part Essay. A short one and the longer version. BCM’s my fav course anyway, had the 3rd highest cumulative score in my class. So I sailed through easily.

The crap on the icing was Physiology. 5 freaking long answer essay questions to answer 4 in 2 freaking hours. Made a couple of silly mistakes I realised outside the hall, if I had a 3rd leg, I’d have kicked myself in the nuts. Anyway I had a good cumulative to fall back on so I didn’t have cause to worry (even though I did…a whole lot)

The MCQs went well. The orals were OK…OK? Did I say that? Well not all. Anyway it started with Anatomy again…and there was my external examiner,…an Indian!!! I’d heard stories about him so I prepped myself. “I agree vit you totally…but what else passes through this” he asked pointing at the foramen spinosum. Nervuus spinosus I’d said stalling him so I could remember what else, anyway I did and blurted out “middle meningeal artery” just as he said you can go.

Physiology Viva was all about English. The Prof. was just breaking into all sorts of grammar and dragging me towards neurophysiology, my fucking worst nightmare, but good students always have something to say now, don’t they?...I’m rambling here right?...anyway my exams were OK, actually exhausting and now I have a 3 months holiday to cool off. Pretty boring if you ask me,…well I’ve got art to fall back to…

Feeling kinda sleepy right now, so I’ll just doze off. OK, catcha later.


For the artlover...keep checking - I'm working on something explosive, U'll love it

Art life (3)

a lil zoom in for more detail

Guess I've been getting better at my art, just completed a nice piece recently and I'm currently working on another, hey if U like 'em U gotta tell me but if U don't I suggest U keep it 2 Urself.

My Fav. Part

well I still do commissioned works since I'm just starting out but that won't be 4 long, so you might want to get something for Urself

Finished work

OK then folks that's all for today, I'll keep you posted on my upcoming works.

I dey break now so its all art n more

He's Back!!!

Hi everyone, I'm back. I doubt if anyone missed me but I still gotta holla.

All because of School sha, but Its all for a good cause. Passed my MBBCh exams and I guess I'll have more time now.

Missed everyone.

C U Guys soon

Bla Bla Bla

One of my new year resolutions this year was to be a better Christian, I started on a good footing, three chapter from the Bible every morning, pray seriously before going to bed, you know generally be good and all that, well by May I stopped reading my Bible regularly and then I’d just utter a few words before dozing off.

Anyway, lately I’ve been thinking…I should get back on the straight and narrow. Makes me feel better and I guess its all we should do right? I mean we didn’t get here by chance, I for one do not believe in evolution. So we were created by someone so we should try to live as such a Being designed Abi?

Well, I’ve been making some changes lately, started a lil though; one verse of the bible a day. I chose proverbs. Chapters are shorter and then they make sense generally in everyday life. Maybe when I’m done I’ll try some other book like, lets see…Corinthians? OK. I wonder why they don’t have books arranged alphabetically? Would have made sense, after reading “P”, move on to “Q”.

Yes! lest I forget, I saw a shooting star some time ago I had just stepped out onto the porch at night, I needed to pick up something at a shop nearby. Then I looked up and just in that split second it passed. I suddenly remembered what I’d been hearing about shooting stars and wishes, so I made two (2) then dashed inside to tell my mum,…yes my mum. Surprised? Well, we’re so close, she sometimes calls me her PA, I’m closer to her than anyone in the family. So like I was saying I told her about it, said she saw one when she was much younger and wished for long life.

Hmm I didn’t think of that when I made my own wishes. Anyway sha, I hope they come true. If they do, I’ll sure let the whole world know.

Sorry all, I've not updated since. Why am I even apologising sef. Its not that my blog is too hot sha, but I know some people drop by.

Well, I've been very busy at school lately and I'm still busy. Writing some serious semester exams. You know these past week each time I read so hard, but when I get into the exam hall, I go like "am I really doing this course?...".

It beats me where these lecturers get their questions. Anyway I dey try sha but "B" average ain't good enough, I thought I'd step it up this semester before my exams but my plans ain't going as planned...( Inglish )

I'll be back in two weeks, or three, I don't know for now, MB exams still dey to write, no kiddin...and sometimes I wake up at night and wonder what the f**k am I really doing

OK oh, I have to leave now gotta go reach some Oyinbo book, wetin I go do now...?

Later............

"Good Day", Abi?

My car had broken down, gear box problem, but I needed to get to the library, I had a lot of reading to do. Being a medical doctor (in the making) entails a lot of reading and more reading. I just had to get to the library somehow, anyhow.

I thought of the 3 means of public transport available. I hated okadas, not enough protection and with the silly crash helmets now, that you had to share with approximately twenty thousand other people patronizing this sector. I wasn’t very keen on catching any hair/scalp infection just yet.

Taxis didn’t ply the library route so my last option was the bus. However this didn’t come without its qualms. The bus stop was close to the market which was quite a distance from my house. Since my cousin was leaving home too to pick a taxi to her friends’, she decided to walk me.

I was ushered to an empty bus and stepped in. This was a new experience for me so I just sat patiently and waited for the bus to fill. The driver was already in, there was a guy sitting beside him up front smoking what looked like a joint (spliff, crack, whareva…) definitely not a cigarette. He looked dirty and unkempt. The driver muttered something in low tones and he moved off and out of the bus. That’s when I got alert. I had a good mind to step off the bus, everything looked suspicious, so as a sharp Nigerian I took out my wallet, removed a large part of the money I was with and pushed it down my socks and into my shoes. I wasn’t taking the change of getting robbed by some market touts. We dey Naija O! and sometimes you need to apply a little wisdom to survive. With this I relaxed a bit. The bus started filling up and soon we moved off.

On the way, the driver took a wrong turn off the major road, I almost protested but then everyone else was sitting calm, I think I must have broken into sweat somewhere. Then I heard some people behind me discussing the state of the road ahead, and how bad it was that the past government didn’t do anything about it. They obviously plied this route often, so I relaxed a little. But this route was so long, winding and bad,…thoroughly bad. I thought the bus was going to come apart as it creaked with every bounce and turn

“Library!” I shouted, taking a cue from one of the passengers that dropped earlier. The guy passed the library a little, I had to shout again. By this time I was getting a little tensed. Obviously he didn’t hear me the first time, as this time he slowed down and came to a halt. I stepped off, paid the fare and heaved a sigh of relief as I walked back to the library. I just had to do something about my car, I was not sure if I could take that another day, but 30grand gear box no be beans now. I shrugged this off my mind as I took a seat in a secluded area of the medical library and proceeded to retrieve my cash. I took my shoes off, then my socks, but an empty socks stared back at me. With the state of my mind at the moment, I immediately thought…JUJU!!! These people have jazzed me and taken my money. But I couldn’t remember falling asleep, or going into a trance or something of the sort. Impossible, it couldn’t be, I shook the sock over and over again, trying to maybe dislodge the money somehow, I looked on the sole of my foot thinking that maybe it stuck there or something, but who sai!!!

My heart rate increased, how was I going to get back home, I had to have lunch later. I stood up, pushed the chair back and then looked down. Staring at me from my empty shoe was a neatly folded pile of naira notes. I shook my head, smiling to myself. It then dawned on my that in the desperation of the moment, I had probably pushed the money straight into my shoe thinking it was in the sock. I noticed one or two eyes looking in my direction as I lowered myself back to my seat, thankful for the separating partitions between the desks.

Na wa oh! I thought to myself, what a was to start my day.

Hi Everyone

Sorry guys about the multiple post. I've taken care of that now. I had some problems posting that stuff. It just wouldn't show show I published it again and again.

nothing much happened today. but I'm definitely sure something will come up tommorrow. So check in

SHout outs:

Ubongda - Hope you aint slacking man!!?
Professor - Saw Ur blog. Good Good.
Blahnik Diva - Simply wierd
Teediva - Nice imaginations
Beautiful mrs somebody - whats up? its been like ages. U have to be in the Kalahari desert or someplace like that to have no access to the internet.

All for Love

Its 3:06pm I’m in the medical section of the Library, its f**king cold in here like 15 oC and I’m just sipping my leftover coke. A while ago like 1:44pm I was getting a bit hungry so I decided to get something to eat. I went down to my fav fast food restaurant and ordered a helping of salad n “2 moi moi” and a coke. Halfway through my meal it started raining so I just took my time n relaxed a lil. That’s when this couple walked in. I was sitting close to the counter so I heard their orders. Omo girl asked for a plate of fried rice with chicken, one moi moi, a helping of salad and a medium sized pack of fruit juice. I went like phew! That’s a heavy lunch. I was waiting to hear the guy’s order. Being the guy I expected his was going to be a larger share but surprisingly he didn’t order anything but rather paid for her meal and headed downstairs while the girl took a seat. I presumed he was going to get something from the counter downstairs. A few minutes later he came back with a small plastic plate and settled on the seat across from the girl to eat (guess what?...) Ice Cream!!!.

I almost choked on my food as I tried to suppress a laugh. This guy was going to take just ice cream while his girl feasted on all that, and the worst part, it was raining outside, the weather inside was like 16 oC and my guy was busy consuming ice cream. Anyway, you might say maybe he wasn’t hungry but then I noticed the way he was eyeing the girl’s plate from time to time, as if to say; “men, do I really know what I’m doing.” They left a while later, by this time the rain had subsided. I refused to leave earlier cos I wanted to see how it all ended.

Omo guys, we dey suffer O!. Well its all for love, so no heat.

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The Crush - 2

June 18, 2007

Yesterday I was in school and guess who else I saw; my crush (Elma) of course with her best friend (Andrea). We were supposed to have a group discussion as part of preparations towards our coming exams. Needless to say, the atmosphere between I and Elma was quite tense, we didn’t talk much and Andrea wasn’t helping matters either as she kept a smiling face (you know the kind of face that says, I know whats up) and was constantly passing bits of paper to her friend. Anyway I later found out that she saw the text I sent to Elma.

Things got worse after the class as I had no where else to turn/run I had to face my fears now, so I said hi to Elma, trying to sound as natural and casual as possible. Her friend took the cue and excused us, probably expecting us to discuss the issue, so there I was alone with Elma , all I could say was that she was acting kinda strange. She said she wasn’t that I was the one acting rather strange. I then told her that I felt weird at the moment and she said its natural. I quickly changed the topic and asked if she would walk me down to photocopy a reading material I got from a class mate. Anyway, to cut the matter short, I had to go home a while later; a friend of mine asked to come along so I could drop him off. I agreed and also offered to drop Elma too. She wanted to sit at the back but my friend insisted she took the front passenger seat, which she agreed to somewhat reluctantly.

We talked on the way (all of us) till I dropped my friend off, then a dead silence took over. She was quite calm but expectant, like she was expecting me to say something, but I was tongue-tied so I brought up a new topic; shares. Asked if she bought any and told her First Bank shares were on sale. She said she did once; one of the now depressed banks and she was being careful now after losing that. We got to her house a while later, she dropped off and I had this funny feeling in my guts like; Damn! You’ve screwed up again.

Later that night I called Andrea, we talked for a while about other stuff but since she was now in on it, there was really no need hiding anything. I poured my mind out to her, we spoke for a little over 10mins. She was however surprised that I didn’t talk about it with Elma when we met earlier in the day. I then asked if they would be in school the next day, so I could come talk to Elma. She said they would, so I ended the call.


June 19, 2007

I dunno if I slept much last night cos I was rehearsing scripts of what I would say when I saw Elma today. I got to school around 11am after spending like an hour in the fuel station. I saw Elma and Andrea in one of the lecture rooms. They weren’t sitting together though, I think its cos Andrea was anticipating my arrival. Well I went to say hi to her first and told her I was nervous, dumbstruck and didn’t have anything to say. I had totally forgotten all the scripts I was practicing the night before. She said I should just go over and say something, so I did. I walked over and took the seat next to Elma. It was empty, almost like it was reserved for me (don’t blame me for thinking like this, everything felt kind of animated by this time). I didn’t resume the discussion immediately, but rather commented on what she was reading, teased her about the state of her notes and other stuff then went silent. You could cut the silence with a knife; it was like a shootout scene from a cowboy movie, where one’s waiting for the other to make the first move. I broke the silence by saying “so…” she immediately replied with “so…what?” to which I replied “d’u want us to talk about it, or do we just pretend this never happened” when she didn’t say anything I continued, saying I had got nothing to say at the moment and maybe if she wanted to say something, she could. She thought for a while then said she had a few things to say; (1) she admired my courage, cos she knew it must have been hard for me to say it (2) she’d still be my friend no matter what. And… (3) there was someone in her life already, that’s why she wouldn’t be able to honour my request. After sitting still n quiet for about a lifetime, I finally said I understood and I thought we should just remain friends afterall, since turning it into a dating relationship could ruin the whole thing and I wouldn’t want that. After sometime, I told her I was glad I spoke out instead of just bottling my feeling up forever, and I was relieved that I did, then just to make sure I asked if this means I was sort of late, to which she nodded.

I was feeling really low by but managed to say I understood and was glad we could still remain friends. Then she laughed and said I was beginning to act animated, so I quickly changed the subject; we talked about school, our upcoming exams and other school stuff. Just then Andrea walked in with a mischievous look on her face, she had gone out of the class when Elma and I got talking. Fortunately, she came over to where we were seated and this sort of helped to loosen the atmosphere a bit. After a while I announced I was taking my leave, had to go to the library to catch up on some reading myself, then I left.

I’m still feeling pretty low as I write this. So much for telling a girl you’re actually tripping. Well I learnt a lesson though, and I keep repeating it to myself; DON’T BE LATE NEXT TIME!

The Crush

June 13, 2007

I did one of the bravest things in my life today, when I look back at it now I might even be tempted to call it silly, but I won’t. OK here’s what I did; I told a girl I had a crush on her. Hey, just before you give me the boot, why don’t you hear what lead to this.

Elma’s in my class, actually we’re friends but that didn’t stop me developing some feelings for her (note the word “develop” meaning it didn’t just spring up overnight). I’d known her since our first year in Med school, a friend of mine introduced us and I liked her (yes…like, not absolutely tripping head over heels, just like) instantly, I guess then it was her voice, but over time I noticed other things I liked about her; I could talk with her comfortably, she had this absolutely nice, giving personality that really drew me closer to her, and then her eyes too, really beautiful. She possessed a look you would describe as wide eyed innocence.

Anyway, I think the feelings I had towards her started developing in our second year. I’m not very sure when, it could have been anytime within the first semester, the hols or maybe second semester. Among our group of friends, we have this make-believe world where everyone’s assigned certain roles, hey! Its nothing formal, just something we play and joke about. OK, so some people are Dads, mums, sisters, husbands, wives etc. anyway, I landed the role of Elma’s ex-hubby and it stuck (don’t ask me how, I don’t know myself). Trust me this wasn’t helping me at all. I thot the feelings would just shake off, for God sake I know she’s my friend but its not like one can control certain feelings.

Today was one of our Andrea’s birthday, (incidentally Elma’s closest friend amongst us all) so we decided to have a sit out around 12noon. I was busy with some other stuff like trying to get fuel for my car and a card for Andrea so I joined them around 2pm. It was a fast food joint, we had lots of fun and just stuck around gisting and making fun of one another. All the while, Elma was looking drop dead gorgeous and I just couldn’t help myself, you can’t imagine how I felt throughout the period. It was like I betrayed someone,…her. I dropped Andrea and Elma at her respective places at about 4:30pm and headed someplace else.

When I got home around 7pm, I decided I had to do something about all these (the feelings) that’s when I composed a txt telling her how I’ve got a crush on her, how I couldn’t help but tell her to save myself from going crazy and how I hoped she wouldn’t be mad n still remain my friend. It took me sometime and a lot of courage to do it but I finally sent it. I had to say something, I was going nuts. Seriously, its not that kind of hit and run feeling I’m having. I’ve analysed it over time (its been two years since we’ve been friends) and I’m sure. I know it will not work out cos we live in separate towns, she only schools in Calabar and based on experience, turning a friendship to a dating relationship never works and don’t think I haven’t tried to kill the feeling, I have; but even getting a girlfriend has not helped issues. I just hope she doesn’t hate me now, cos that would just complicate issues further. I’m just confused. Really confused.


June 14, 2007

I called Elma this morning around 8:30am I asked if she got my text and she said she did. I then went ahead to say, I know I wasn’t supposed to harbour such feelings about her but I just couldn’t help it I couldn’t also go around calling her my friend with these feeling burning within me. I was surprised when she said she understands and that we would talk about it when next we see and that she wasn’t mad at me or anything of the sort. So, there its done. I can’t turn back the hands of time so I’ll just wait and hear what she has to say.

She was even more understanding than another lady (she’s much older than me, maybe about 6 years) whom I recently told I had a crush for when I was younger, she just no gree understand that it was in the past. Omo see raking now, I immediately regretted telling her. It was all so funny to me, I just wonder if she did not get what I said or maybe the English was a bit too confusing for her, I told her I had not I have. I got me to imagine what would have happened if I told her I have a crush for her right now? Maybe I wouldn’t be typing this by now or I would be typing from a hospital bed. Well I finally said make she no vex oh! that I thought she could handle it a bit more maturely and stop making an issue over it. It was just so funny to see a big girl like that acting up. She ended by saying we shouldn’t talk about it again, and that she would stop calling me. Like I really care if she does? Abeg, I’ve got a whole lot on my mind to care about.

Second Issue:
I usually oversee things at my dad’s computer firm when I’m on holiday and there’s this girl that works for us. Anyway she invited me to come know her place last week and we had a little thing (not sex outright) but I was a bit tight that day and I wasn’t fully in control of my actions. Since then whenever I’m in the inner office she’s come in sit with me and we would just talk.

Its raining outside today and I was just sitting here typing the beginning part of this when she walked in a while ago, rested her elbows on the table beside my laptop, her face was like 3inches from mine and started telling me how she missed me yesterday and all that, I just kept going like “hmm, are you sure” and “really?”, not wanting to say anything else that I might regret later. Anyway she moved after a while and went to sit across the table from me, asking if she could stay, since my Dad was in the outer office. I just told me she could if she wanted to, but since my dad was around, maybe she should come back later. See me see wahala O! somebody pls help, can all these be happening to a guy in 2 days?

My Art Life - 3

I’m very sure that when I said I’ve got all it takes to become a force to reckon with in the world of Art, some people were like he’s just laying down one of those lines. Well I decided to dig up some of my current works so U can see a lil of what I’m talking about.

MOI

This one is a self portrait of me at the age of a year plus or maybe two, can't remember. Of course I didn't draw it at age two. Just means the portrait depicts what I looked like at that age. Did this like a month ago

MY MUM

Yeah, so I got a bit sentimental and decided to draw my mum, well maybe you'll tell me how it looks, Some progress reports here...

Just started the piece, I always start with the face, particularly the eyes. Unfortunately, I didn't get to show the earlier parts, Maybe someother time

Worked on the clothing and its all going well

I admit, the hair gave me some tough time but I overcame.

I'm almost done with this piece and I'll keep you posted as soon as I'm through. So who still thinks I don't have what it takes to become an Armin Mersmann someday, eh?

My Art Life – 2

Yesterday was children’s day here in Nigeria, and I was just thinking…you know how we always said what we would love to be when we grew up. When I was growing up, I heard a lot of; “I want to become an Engineer”, “I want to become a Doctor”, “… a Lawyer”, “… a banker”, “… an accountant” and so on. I never once heard “I want to be a farmer” or “shoemaker”, or “trader”, maybe a “cook”, or even an “artist”! so as a young boy, I followed suit, I wanted to be a Doctor (don’t get me wrong, I still want to be a doctor) and I followed my dream; I’m currently training to become a Doctor (although at some point in my life, I wanted to be an Engineer too)

Well after meeting John Duey, Armin Mersmann and Linda (via their websites), I think I’ve come to that point in my life where I’m beginning to think that maybe I want to become an artist, a graphite artist to be precise. Don’t start persecuting me just yet, till you hear how that came to be. I’ve been drawing since I was a kid and I actually got better as the days passed. Well, I never thought of going professional until I visited Linda’s site and realized she charged $200.00 per single-person pencil portrait and that was the least she was charging.

Anyway things got really serious when I visited Duey’s site and saw a link directing me to Armin Mersmann’s site. I’d heard of Armin before and seen the link too but I never gave it a thought. A few days ago, I finally visited his site and now I almost wish I didn’t (well,…almost). Bottom line is I discovered Armin sells his pencil portraits for anything in the range of a whooping $6,000.00 and upwards.

Now that you know my reasons, I’m sure you won’t blame me too much for wanting to become a graphite artist. I’ve got a lot of what it takes, and I’m acquiring the rest. I’ve also improved greatly in my art since My Art life, but I just can’t back out of Medicine now; I’ve gone quite far and I intend to see it to completion, but who says I can’t be an “artist-doctor” or a “doctor-artist” eh?

All Hail Nigerian Bloggers

I was just going through some blogs by my Nigerian Brothers and Sisters, una too try. Abeg someone give us a clap offering, I’m extremely proud to be Nigerian. Is there something like a Nigerian Fans’ Club? I would love to join to reassert my love, best blogs I read today include:

Waffy Girl
Confused Naija Babe
Calabar Gal2
Mrs Somebody
Baba Alaye

But everybody try sha…l8a

Imagine

I could really do with a change of skin right now, last night I was thinking or rather imagining myself, a naked three year old trotting along the beach the gentle breeze caressing my body and the gentle sun rays bathing my entire being.

It was such a nice feeling while it lasted, until I had to come back to the harsh reality that it was just an imagination. Anyway my imaginations are not always thus inclined, its just something I’m passing through. I feel numb to everything going on around me; its just like one minute you’re being tickled with a thousand feathers and you’re giggling your head off and the next minute you just go numb like someone just flicked a switch the wrong way, you can’t feel a thing, you’re scared, really frustrating right?

We sometimes feel we know where we’re headed, we imagine we know what we’re doing and so we set off; 24hrs, 7days…a month, 1year, hey we seem to be doing just fine but wait!, all of a sudden we realize…we took the wrong turn like 10months ago and we need to track back but unfortunately, the sands of time have drifted over our footprints and we’re lost in the middle of nowhere (imagine yourself in a vacuum screaming help! Damn it, no one can hear you), so you get the picture, I don’t want to make such a mistake.

I’ve got this thing for perfection; I imagine, I must have the perfect job, the perfect status, live the perfect way of life, have perfect dates, a perfect wife and then subsequently perfect kids but lately I’ve come to learn that life isn’t perfect and that’s annoying, really annoying and that’s what got me imagining in the first place. OK, Suppose we could all start over again, suppose we could all be three year olds again and then think and act differently, maybe there would be perfect people on earth, perfect dates, perfect everything. But we can’t all be perfect,…or can we? Well, I’ve also learnt one other thing lately,

“perfection is in the eyes of the beholder.”

Think about it…

My Art Life

My Art life

Well enough about the girls for now cos I think there’re more important things to discuss like my art. Oh I guess that wasn’t made public, well I think I’m a talented graphite artist (meaning I draw with pencil) still striving towards perfection but I’ll let you judge all that.
However, due to the nature of my studies, I tend to have little or no time to pursue and advance my beloved pastime so a lot of my works are somewhat incomplete, coupled with the recent loss of my hard drive (a loss I still mourn) I have very limited no of my works on display.
However I’m approaching my long holidays soon so I think I should be able to do some more.
Well, here’re a few of my works

Remi

A commissioned work, but as you can see its somewhat incomplete cos I lost the copy of the picture along with my hard drive. I work with the computer in my art to somewhat blow the pics up for more detail. So like I said its incomplete, thanks to my faulty drive.

My nephews

This one’s not in graphite. I rendered this in ink, (blue to be precise). Just a spark of inspiration one afternoon and I decided to do a portrait of them of course not life that would be highly impossible as those two are the most “unstable” people you’ve met.

Ukpa

Another commissioned work, spent like 3 days on this, luckily I had time to complete this and deliver it.

Didn’t think of it now but in my next post I should be able to let you see the reference pics so you can make your judgments. Criticisms (especially from artists) would be most welcome

Well my ISP's are still giving me hell but I'm currently hooking up another deal with a new ISP.

Anyway, back to the gist of the season. I finally hooked up with one of the girls chick #2 (See Previous blog). But I guess I did it out of pressure and I'm already regretting now that I know a bit more about her.

I figured my problem out while talking to my best friend (who incidentally is a girl too!); I discovered that I keep running this background comparison of the girls I date against my Perfect date and I tend to lose interest if they don't measure up. I don't know if this is wrong or right, but its my way of ensuring that I stay happy (that may sound a bit selfish).

Well its happening again, and at the moment chick #2 doesn't seem to be measuring up and again I'm beginning to lose interest again! its a vicious cycle and I don't know when its gonna end but I'll just stick with her for a while (though I'm totally bored) and see how things go.

Its too early to break up right?

Girl Wahala

I think I’ve had it up to here (indicating my head). These days I think I’m gonna go crazy. I’ve got three girls either in or wanting to be in my life right now. You see that’s the problem, I’m undecided as to where they are right now.

1st one happened a couple of months ago, like in October. Well we’ve been friends for a long time (since 2001) more like family friends, because our parents know each other. Anyway I just don’t know if it’s a crush but she suddenly started sending me some suggesting texts ending with phrases like I love you and all that.

Well I hadn’t seen her in a while till one day in October (my birthday) she calls and asked where I was. Believe it or not, I was in the library because I had some serious exams coming up pretty soon. I wasn’t gonna party but since she came around, I decided to take her out someplace. Actually I was expecting her to bring up the issue or something bbut since she didn’t I just sat back and had a nice time.

A few days later she texts me again and still same ending, that’s when I decided to address it. I call her up and bring up the issue. She’s quiet, but since I picked the nail, I guessed I might as well drive it in, so I prod further. Note I wasn’t tripping I just didn’t wanna let a nice girl down so I said we could work things out, U know; I’m game and all that. So that makes her what? My girlfriend? I don’t know about that because I haven’t seen her since even though she calls often (maybe every 3-4 days on the average) and texts? Yeah but not a lot of the love U and all that anymore so that leaves me wondering

Anyway, girl #2. I met that one for the first time like a year ago, a friend of mine introduced us and babe has just been liking me ever since. I tried not to pay her any attention,, see if she might just let me off, U know? But who say! It even got to the extent of saying she was my wife and that we’re going to get married and all that, and me I was just playing along like that, not knowing that…well…I still don’t know…I’m still trying to know.

Well I embarked on the long road of knowing one afternoon. I was in school and she calls me up like can you come over and see me? I’m like OK, maybe. I really didn’t wanna go but anyway when she called like 15 minutes later, I decide to go over and see what’s up. So I get there and I remained in the car and flash her. She promptly comes out and invites me in, mind you, she stays with her parents but I’m like probably they’re not around. Well she tells me she wants to introduce me to her parents and I’m like yeah right.

I still don’t know why I followed her in but I did, we were just about on the porch when I hear a large male voice from the living room, like “where’s that your friend, that you said was coming?” and you know her reply?, I thought so too. Well she says; Dad he’s not my friend, he’s my husband. I’m like what! Anyway, I was already 2 feet deep in the shit so I might as well walk on, which I did into the living. Worst part of the scenario, both her dad and his friend knew my parents. As you would expect, my visit was very short-lived. Anyway, that was just the beginning of a new part of my life cos this babe ever since has not relented in expressing her love for me to the extent that I’m constantly deleting texts, you know when some one sends you like 10 text messages a day. Well that part that gets me wondering is that babe is fine so I want to play, I want a serious relationship, she says she loves me but she doesn’t want it to develop into a serious relationship. Girls out there, could you tell me what all these mean? Cos its leaving me wondering. I saw her today and she was itching to leave, so I let her go. Anyway 10 minutes later I get a text saying she didn’t really want to go and she misses me already. Miss me ke?! About 35mins later she calls to ask if she should come back and see me but I said I was leaving, maybe some other time. I get home about an hour and half later and I get a text from her saying she wants to hear me say I love her. Please what does a bro do abeg? The worst of all these is that my mammy water ex-chick (see previous blog) won’t just let me be. I saw her today but I had to run cos chick #2 was constantly flashing me to announce her presence someplace where we were supposed to meet.

Well I was just reading the text from chick #2 when my ex calls and says she wants to see me (mind U this is like 9pm). See me ke?! I’m nursing a headache, contemplating whether to call chick #2 and trying to get some rest and this girl wan see me? I just told her it wasn’t possible and I’ll see her tomorrow, but this chick no gree, saying she’s depressed, needs to talk to me, an all that. Oya talk now, she says its not phone talk and cuts the call. Exactly 5 mins later she calls again, telling me how serious she is and so and so, and me I stick to my guns and tell her its not possible and she should call me at night when its going to be cheaper and she cuts the call again. 8 mins later, she texts me, telling me how I never understand how one feels, and how she's losing it. yeah! losing it? me I've already lost it oh!

Abeg someone should tell me how to get out of all these cos I'm tired. anyway, 1st things first, I've put my phone off and I think I want lose it cos that would help me to relax or don't you think so?