Hard knock love

So how do you explain the feeling you get when you love someone so much, but your heart aches at the thought of it cos you can’t be with the person for some unknown reason. Now How’d you get urself in this.

Simple, you just go to bed thinking about someone and as the days pass you realize that this person captures Ur whole thoughts, you r whole being, you can’t think of much else and even when you do, Ur mind keeps getting drawn back like an elastic band; only this one just doesn’t get weaker as the days pass.

Then I think to myself why, why’re U doing this to Urself, she doesn’t even know, snap out of this man!; its probably an infatuation. Days pass, weeks, months !!, but I’m still here. Then I step up to the plate and take the bat in hand, ready to hit a home run but no, it falls just short of the pitch, I’m not the one she desires; alas my hopes are dashed, I can’t seem to make out why. so I go back into my shell, an empty cold one, and curl up licking my wounds.

An occasional light flickers, maybe she does like me after all, so I prod further following the light, It gets brighter, the source is in sight, I can feel the warmth, the soft glow in the dark, I reach out to the source but again its an illusion; still too far away. it doesn’t recede this time but the cold returns, the hard shell encases me. Ah! what I would give to have the light, to bask in its full glow… (too emotional to continue)

...to be continued