Its 3:06pm I’m in the medical section of the Library, its f**king cold in here like 15 oC and I’m just sipping my leftover coke. A while ago like 1:44pm I was getting a bit hungry so I decided to get something to eat. I went down to my fav fast food restaurant and ordered a helping of salad n “2 moi moi” and a coke. Halfway through my meal it started raining so I just took my time n relaxed a lil. That’s when this couple walked in. I was sitting close to the counter so I heard their orders. Omo girl asked for a plate of fried rice with chicken, one moi moi, a helping of salad and a medium sized pack of fruit juice. I went like phew! That’s a heavy lunch. I was waiting to hear the guy’s order. Being the guy I expected his was going to be a larger share but surprisingly he didn’t order anything but rather paid for her meal and headed downstairs while the girl took a seat. I presumed he was going to get something from the counter downstairs. A few minutes later he came back with a small plastic plate and settled on the seat across from the girl to eat (guess what?...) Ice Cream!!!.
I almost choked on my food as I tried to suppress a laugh. This guy was going to take just ice cream while his girl feasted on all that, and the worst part, it was raining outside, the weather inside was like 16 oC and my guy was busy consuming ice cream. Anyway, you might say maybe he wasn’t hungry but then I noticed the way he was eyeing the girl’s plate from time to time, as if to say; “men, do I really know what I’m doing.” They left a while later, by this time the rain had subsided. I refused to leave earlier cos I wanted to see how it all ended.
Omo guys, we dey suffer O!. Well its all for love, so no heat.
Monday, June 25, 2007
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Template Change
hi hi, How do Y'all like my new design? I wanted something more lively n recent, the other one was 2 dark Hope YOu like it.
Well drop a comment on what you think, and please come back soon
Well drop a comment on what you think, and please come back soon
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
The Crush - 2
June 18, 2007
Yesterday I was in school and guess who else I saw; my crush (Elma) of course with her best friend (Andrea). We were supposed to have a group discussion as part of preparations towards our coming exams. Needless to say, the atmosphere between I and Elma was quite tense, we didn’t talk much and Andrea wasn’t helping matters either as she kept a smiling face (you know the kind of face that says, I know whats up) and was constantly passing bits of paper to her friend. Anyway I later found out that she saw the text I sent to Elma.
Things got worse after the class as I had no where else to turn/run I had to face my fears now, so I said hi to Elma, trying to sound as natural and casual as possible. Her friend took the cue and excused us, probably expecting us to discuss the issue, so there I was alone with Elma , all I could say was that she was acting kinda strange. She said she wasn’t that I was the one acting rather strange. I then told her that I felt weird at the moment and she said its natural. I quickly changed the topic and asked if she would walk me down to photocopy a reading material I got from a class mate. Anyway, to cut the matter short, I had to go home a while later; a friend of mine asked to come along so I could drop him off. I agreed and also offered to drop Elma too. She wanted to sit at the back but my friend insisted she took the front passenger seat, which she agreed to somewhat reluctantly.
We talked on the way (all of us) till I dropped my friend off, then a dead silence took over. She was quite calm but expectant, like she was expecting me to say something, but I was tongue-tied so I brought up a new topic; shares. Asked if she bought any and told her First Bank shares were on sale. She said she did once; one of the now depressed banks and she was being careful now after losing that. We got to her house a while later, she dropped off and I had this funny feeling in my guts like; Damn! You’ve screwed up again.
Later that night I called Andrea, we talked for a while about other stuff but since she was now in on it, there was really no need hiding anything. I poured my mind out to her, we spoke for a little over 10mins. She was however surprised that I didn’t talk about it with Elma when we met earlier in the day. I then asked if they would be in school the next day, so I could come talk to Elma. She said they would, so I ended the call.
June 19, 2007
I dunno if I slept much last night cos I was rehearsing scripts of what I would say when I saw Elma today. I got to school around 11am after spending like an hour in the fuel station. I saw Elma and Andrea in one of the lecture rooms. They weren’t sitting together though, I think its cos Andrea was anticipating my arrival. Well I went to say hi to her first and told her I was nervous, dumbstruck and didn’t have anything to say. I had totally forgotten all the scripts I was practicing the night before. She said I should just go over and say something, so I did. I walked over and took the seat next to Elma. It was empty, almost like it was reserved for me (don’t blame me for thinking like this, everything felt kind of animated by this time). I didn’t resume the discussion immediately, but rather commented on what she was reading, teased her about the state of her notes and other stuff then went silent. You could cut the silence with a knife; it was like a shootout scene from a cowboy movie, where one’s waiting for the other to make the first move. I broke the silence by saying “so…” she immediately replied with “so…what?” to which I replied “d’u want us to talk about it, or do we just pretend this never happened” when she didn’t say anything I continued, saying I had got nothing to say at the moment and maybe if she wanted to say something, she could. She thought for a while then said she had a few things to say; (1) she admired my courage, cos she knew it must have been hard for me to say it (2) she’d still be my friend no matter what. And… (3) there was someone in her life already, that’s why she wouldn’t be able to honour my request. After sitting still n quiet for about a lifetime, I finally said I understood and I thought we should just remain friends afterall, since turning it into a dating relationship could ruin the whole thing and I wouldn’t want that. After sometime, I told her I was glad I spoke out instead of just bottling my feeling up forever, and I was relieved that I did, then just to make sure I asked if this means I was sort of late, to which she nodded.
I was feeling really low by but managed to say I understood and was glad we could still remain friends. Then she laughed and said I was beginning to act animated, so I quickly changed the subject; we talked about school, our upcoming exams and other school stuff. Just then Andrea walked in with a mischievous look on her face, she had gone out of the class when Elma and I got talking. Fortunately, she came over to where we were seated and this sort of helped to loosen the atmosphere a bit. After a while I announced I was taking my leave, had to go to the library to catch up on some reading myself, then I left.
I’m still feeling pretty low as I write this. So much for telling a girl you’re actually tripping. Well I learnt a lesson though, and I keep repeating it to myself; DON’T BE LATE NEXT TIME!
Yesterday I was in school and guess who else I saw; my crush (Elma) of course with her best friend (Andrea). We were supposed to have a group discussion as part of preparations towards our coming exams. Needless to say, the atmosphere between I and Elma was quite tense, we didn’t talk much and Andrea wasn’t helping matters either as she kept a smiling face (you know the kind of face that says, I know whats up) and was constantly passing bits of paper to her friend. Anyway I later found out that she saw the text I sent to Elma.
Things got worse after the class as I had no where else to turn/run I had to face my fears now, so I said hi to Elma, trying to sound as natural and casual as possible. Her friend took the cue and excused us, probably expecting us to discuss the issue, so there I was alone with Elma , all I could say was that she was acting kinda strange. She said she wasn’t that I was the one acting rather strange. I then told her that I felt weird at the moment and she said its natural. I quickly changed the topic and asked if she would walk me down to photocopy a reading material I got from a class mate. Anyway, to cut the matter short, I had to go home a while later; a friend of mine asked to come along so I could drop him off. I agreed and also offered to drop Elma too. She wanted to sit at the back but my friend insisted she took the front passenger seat, which she agreed to somewhat reluctantly.
We talked on the way (all of us) till I dropped my friend off, then a dead silence took over. She was quite calm but expectant, like she was expecting me to say something, but I was tongue-tied so I brought up a new topic; shares. Asked if she bought any and told her First Bank shares were on sale. She said she did once; one of the now depressed banks and she was being careful now after losing that. We got to her house a while later, she dropped off and I had this funny feeling in my guts like; Damn! You’ve screwed up again.
Later that night I called Andrea, we talked for a while about other stuff but since she was now in on it, there was really no need hiding anything. I poured my mind out to her, we spoke for a little over 10mins. She was however surprised that I didn’t talk about it with Elma when we met earlier in the day. I then asked if they would be in school the next day, so I could come talk to Elma. She said they would, so I ended the call.
June 19, 2007
I dunno if I slept much last night cos I was rehearsing scripts of what I would say when I saw Elma today. I got to school around 11am after spending like an hour in the fuel station. I saw Elma and Andrea in one of the lecture rooms. They weren’t sitting together though, I think its cos Andrea was anticipating my arrival. Well I went to say hi to her first and told her I was nervous, dumbstruck and didn’t have anything to say. I had totally forgotten all the scripts I was practicing the night before. She said I should just go over and say something, so I did. I walked over and took the seat next to Elma. It was empty, almost like it was reserved for me (don’t blame me for thinking like this, everything felt kind of animated by this time). I didn’t resume the discussion immediately, but rather commented on what she was reading, teased her about the state of her notes and other stuff then went silent. You could cut the silence with a knife; it was like a shootout scene from a cowboy movie, where one’s waiting for the other to make the first move. I broke the silence by saying “so…” she immediately replied with “so…what?” to which I replied “d’u want us to talk about it, or do we just pretend this never happened” when she didn’t say anything I continued, saying I had got nothing to say at the moment and maybe if she wanted to say something, she could. She thought for a while then said she had a few things to say; (1) she admired my courage, cos she knew it must have been hard for me to say it (2) she’d still be my friend no matter what. And… (3) there was someone in her life already, that’s why she wouldn’t be able to honour my request. After sitting still n quiet for about a lifetime, I finally said I understood and I thought we should just remain friends afterall, since turning it into a dating relationship could ruin the whole thing and I wouldn’t want that. After sometime, I told her I was glad I spoke out instead of just bottling my feeling up forever, and I was relieved that I did, then just to make sure I asked if this means I was sort of late, to which she nodded.
I was feeling really low by but managed to say I understood and was glad we could still remain friends. Then she laughed and said I was beginning to act animated, so I quickly changed the subject; we talked about school, our upcoming exams and other school stuff. Just then Andrea walked in with a mischievous look on her face, she had gone out of the class when Elma and I got talking. Fortunately, she came over to where we were seated and this sort of helped to loosen the atmosphere a bit. After a while I announced I was taking my leave, had to go to the library to catch up on some reading myself, then I left.
I’m still feeling pretty low as I write this. So much for telling a girl you’re actually tripping. Well I learnt a lesson though, and I keep repeating it to myself; DON’T BE LATE NEXT TIME!
Thursday, June 14, 2007
The Crush
June 13, 2007
I did one of the bravest things in my life today, when I look back at it now I might even be tempted to call it silly, but I won’t. OK here’s what I did; I told a girl I had a crush on her. Hey, just before you give me the boot, why don’t you hear what lead to this.
Elma’s in my class, actually we’re friends but that didn’t stop me developing some feelings for her (note the word “develop” meaning it didn’t just spring up overnight). I’d known her since our first year in Med school, a friend of mine introduced us and I liked her (yes…like, not absolutely tripping head over heels, just like) instantly, I guess then it was her voice, but over time I noticed other things I liked about her; I could talk with her comfortably, she had this absolutely nice, giving personality that really drew me closer to her, and then her eyes too, really beautiful. She possessed a look you would describe as wide eyed innocence.
Anyway, I think the feelings I had towards her started developing in our second year. I’m not very sure when, it could have been anytime within the first semester, the hols or maybe second semester. Among our group of friends, we have this make-believe world where everyone’s assigned certain roles, hey! Its nothing formal, just something we play and joke about. OK, so some people are Dads, mums, sisters, husbands, wives etc. anyway, I landed the role of Elma’s ex-hubby and it stuck (don’t ask me how, I don’t know myself). Trust me this wasn’t helping me at all. I thot the feelings would just shake off, for God sake I know she’s my friend but its not like one can control certain feelings.
Today was one of our Andrea’s birthday, (incidentally Elma’s closest friend amongst us all) so we decided to have a sit out around 12noon. I was busy with some other stuff like trying to get fuel for my car and a card for Andrea so I joined them around 2pm. It was a fast food joint, we had lots of fun and just stuck around gisting and making fun of one another. All the while, Elma was looking drop dead gorgeous and I just couldn’t help myself, you can’t imagine how I felt throughout the period. It was like I betrayed someone,…her. I dropped Andrea and Elma at her respective places at about 4:30pm and headed someplace else.
When I got home around 7pm, I decided I had to do something about all these (the feelings) that’s when I composed a txt telling her how I’ve got a crush on her, how I couldn’t help but tell her to save myself from going crazy and how I hoped she wouldn’t be mad n still remain my friend. It took me sometime and a lot of courage to do it but I finally sent it. I had to say something, I was going nuts. Seriously, its not that kind of hit and run feeling I’m having. I’ve analysed it over time (its been two years since we’ve been friends) and I’m sure. I know it will not work out cos we live in separate towns, she only schools in Calabar and based on experience, turning a friendship to a dating relationship never works and don’t think I haven’t tried to kill the feeling, I have; but even getting a girlfriend has not helped issues. I just hope she doesn’t hate me now, cos that would just complicate issues further. I’m just confused. Really confused.
June 14, 2007
I called Elma this morning around 8:30am I asked if she got my text and she said she did. I then went ahead to say, I know I wasn’t supposed to harbour such feelings about her but I just couldn’t help it I couldn’t also go around calling her my friend with these feeling burning within me. I was surprised when she said she understands and that we would talk about it when next we see and that she wasn’t mad at me or anything of the sort. So, there its done. I can’t turn back the hands of time so I’ll just wait and hear what she has to say.
She was even more understanding than another lady (she’s much older than me, maybe about 6 years) whom I recently told I had a crush for when I was younger, she just no gree understand that it was in the past. Omo see raking now, I immediately regretted telling her. It was all so funny to me, I just wonder if she did not get what I said or maybe the English was a bit too confusing for her, I told her I had not I have. I got me to imagine what would have happened if I told her I have a crush for her right now? Maybe I wouldn’t be typing this by now or I would be typing from a hospital bed. Well I finally said make she no vex oh! that I thought she could handle it a bit more maturely and stop making an issue over it. It was just so funny to see a big girl like that acting up. She ended by saying we shouldn’t talk about it again, and that she would stop calling me. Like I really care if she does? Abeg, I’ve got a whole lot on my mind to care about.
Second Issue:
I usually oversee things at my dad’s computer firm when I’m on holiday and there’s this girl that works for us. Anyway she invited me to come know her place last week and we had a little thing (not sex outright) but I was a bit tight that day and I wasn’t fully in control of my actions. Since then whenever I’m in the inner office she’s come in sit with me and we would just talk.
Its raining outside today and I was just sitting here typing the beginning part of this when she walked in a while ago, rested her elbows on the table beside my laptop, her face was like 3inches from mine and started telling me how she missed me yesterday and all that, I just kept going like “hmm, are you sure” and “really?”, not wanting to say anything else that I might regret later. Anyway she moved after a while and went to sit across the table from me, asking if she could stay, since my Dad was in the outer office. I just told me she could if she wanted to, but since my dad was around, maybe she should come back later. See me see wahala O! somebody pls help, can all these be happening to a guy in 2 days?
I did one of the bravest things in my life today, when I look back at it now I might even be tempted to call it silly, but I won’t. OK here’s what I did; I told a girl I had a crush on her. Hey, just before you give me the boot, why don’t you hear what lead to this.
Elma’s in my class, actually we’re friends but that didn’t stop me developing some feelings for her (note the word “develop” meaning it didn’t just spring up overnight). I’d known her since our first year in Med school, a friend of mine introduced us and I liked her (yes…like, not absolutely tripping head over heels, just like) instantly, I guess then it was her voice, but over time I noticed other things I liked about her; I could talk with her comfortably, she had this absolutely nice, giving personality that really drew me closer to her, and then her eyes too, really beautiful. She possessed a look you would describe as wide eyed innocence.
Anyway, I think the feelings I had towards her started developing in our second year. I’m not very sure when, it could have been anytime within the first semester, the hols or maybe second semester. Among our group of friends, we have this make-believe world where everyone’s assigned certain roles, hey! Its nothing formal, just something we play and joke about. OK, so some people are Dads, mums, sisters, husbands, wives etc. anyway, I landed the role of Elma’s ex-hubby and it stuck (don’t ask me how, I don’t know myself). Trust me this wasn’t helping me at all. I thot the feelings would just shake off, for God sake I know she’s my friend but its not like one can control certain feelings.
Today was one of our Andrea’s birthday, (incidentally Elma’s closest friend amongst us all) so we decided to have a sit out around 12noon. I was busy with some other stuff like trying to get fuel for my car and a card for Andrea so I joined them around 2pm. It was a fast food joint, we had lots of fun and just stuck around gisting and making fun of one another. All the while, Elma was looking drop dead gorgeous and I just couldn’t help myself, you can’t imagine how I felt throughout the period. It was like I betrayed someone,…her. I dropped Andrea and Elma at her respective places at about 4:30pm and headed someplace else.
When I got home around 7pm, I decided I had to do something about all these (the feelings) that’s when I composed a txt telling her how I’ve got a crush on her, how I couldn’t help but tell her to save myself from going crazy and how I hoped she wouldn’t be mad n still remain my friend. It took me sometime and a lot of courage to do it but I finally sent it. I had to say something, I was going nuts. Seriously, its not that kind of hit and run feeling I’m having. I’ve analysed it over time (its been two years since we’ve been friends) and I’m sure. I know it will not work out cos we live in separate towns, she only schools in Calabar and based on experience, turning a friendship to a dating relationship never works and don’t think I haven’t tried to kill the feeling, I have; but even getting a girlfriend has not helped issues. I just hope she doesn’t hate me now, cos that would just complicate issues further. I’m just confused. Really confused.
June 14, 2007
I called Elma this morning around 8:30am I asked if she got my text and she said she did. I then went ahead to say, I know I wasn’t supposed to harbour such feelings about her but I just couldn’t help it I couldn’t also go around calling her my friend with these feeling burning within me. I was surprised when she said she understands and that we would talk about it when next we see and that she wasn’t mad at me or anything of the sort. So, there its done. I can’t turn back the hands of time so I’ll just wait and hear what she has to say.
She was even more understanding than another lady (she’s much older than me, maybe about 6 years) whom I recently told I had a crush for when I was younger, she just no gree understand that it was in the past. Omo see raking now, I immediately regretted telling her. It was all so funny to me, I just wonder if she did not get what I said or maybe the English was a bit too confusing for her, I told her I had not I have. I got me to imagine what would have happened if I told her I have a crush for her right now? Maybe I wouldn’t be typing this by now or I would be typing from a hospital bed. Well I finally said make she no vex oh! that I thought she could handle it a bit more maturely and stop making an issue over it. It was just so funny to see a big girl like that acting up. She ended by saying we shouldn’t talk about it again, and that she would stop calling me. Like I really care if she does? Abeg, I’ve got a whole lot on my mind to care about.
Second Issue:
I usually oversee things at my dad’s computer firm when I’m on holiday and there’s this girl that works for us. Anyway she invited me to come know her place last week and we had a little thing (not sex outright) but I was a bit tight that day and I wasn’t fully in control of my actions. Since then whenever I’m in the inner office she’s come in sit with me and we would just talk.
Its raining outside today and I was just sitting here typing the beginning part of this when she walked in a while ago, rested her elbows on the table beside my laptop, her face was like 3inches from mine and started telling me how she missed me yesterday and all that, I just kept going like “hmm, are you sure” and “really?”, not wanting to say anything else that I might regret later. Anyway she moved after a while and went to sit across the table from me, asking if she could stay, since my Dad was in the outer office. I just told me she could if she wanted to, but since my dad was around, maybe she should come back later. See me see wahala O! somebody pls help, can all these be happening to a guy in 2 days?
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
My Art Life - 3
I’m very sure that when I said I’ve got all it takes to become a force to reckon with in the world of Art, some people were like he’s just laying down one of those lines. Well I decided to dig up some of my current works so U can see a lil of what I’m talking about.
MOI
This one is a self portrait of me at the age of a year plus or maybe two, can't remember. Of course I didn't draw it at age two. Just means the portrait depicts what I looked like at that age. Did this like a month ago
MY MUM
Yeah, so I got a bit sentimental and decided to draw my mum, well maybe you'll tell me how it looks, Some progress reports here...
Just started the piece, I always start with the face, particularly the eyes. Unfortunately, I didn't get to show the earlier parts, Maybe someother time
Worked on the clothing and its all going well
I admit, the hair gave me some tough time but I overcame.
I'm almost done with this piece and I'll keep you posted as soon as I'm through. So who still thinks I don't have what it takes to become an Armin Mersmann someday, eh?
Saturday, June 9, 2007
My Art Life – 2
Yesterday was children’s day here in Nigeria, and I was just thinking…you know how we always said what we would love to be when we grew up. When I was growing up, I heard a lot of; “I want to become an Engineer”, “I want to become a Doctor”, “… a Lawyer”, “… a banker”, “… an accountant” and so on. I never once heard “I want to be a farmer” or “shoemaker”, or “trader”, maybe a “cook”, or even an “artist”! so as a young boy, I followed suit, I wanted to be a Doctor (don’t get me wrong, I still want to be a doctor) and I followed my dream; I’m currently training to become a Doctor (although at some point in my life, I wanted to be an Engineer too)
Well after meeting John Duey, Armin Mersmann and Linda (via their websites), I think I’ve come to that point in my life where I’m beginning to think that maybe I want to become an artist, a graphite artist to be precise. Don’t start persecuting me just yet, till you hear how that came to be. I’ve been drawing since I was a kid and I actually got better as the days passed. Well, I never thought of going professional until I visited Linda’s site and realized she charged $200.00 per single-person pencil portrait and that was the least she was charging.
Anyway things got really serious when I visited Duey’s site and saw a link directing me to Armin Mersmann’s site. I’d heard of Armin before and seen the link too but I never gave it a thought. A few days ago, I finally visited his site and now I almost wish I didn’t (well,…almost). Bottom line is I discovered Armin sells his pencil portraits for anything in the range of a whooping $6,000.00 and upwards.
Now that you know my reasons, I’m sure you won’t blame me too much for wanting to become a graphite artist. I’ve got a lot of what it takes, and I’m acquiring the rest. I’ve also improved greatly in my art since My Art life, but I just can’t back out of Medicine now; I’ve gone quite far and I intend to see it to completion, but who says I can’t be an “artist-doctor” or a “doctor-artist” eh?
Well after meeting John Duey, Armin Mersmann and Linda (via their websites), I think I’ve come to that point in my life where I’m beginning to think that maybe I want to become an artist, a graphite artist to be precise. Don’t start persecuting me just yet, till you hear how that came to be. I’ve been drawing since I was a kid and I actually got better as the days passed. Well, I never thought of going professional until I visited Linda’s site and realized she charged $200.00 per single-person pencil portrait and that was the least she was charging.
Anyway things got really serious when I visited Duey’s site and saw a link directing me to Armin Mersmann’s site. I’d heard of Armin before and seen the link too but I never gave it a thought. A few days ago, I finally visited his site and now I almost wish I didn’t (well,…almost). Bottom line is I discovered Armin sells his pencil portraits for anything in the range of a whooping $6,000.00 and upwards.
Now that you know my reasons, I’m sure you won’t blame me too much for wanting to become a graphite artist. I’ve got a lot of what it takes, and I’m acquiring the rest. I’ve also improved greatly in my art since My Art life, but I just can’t back out of Medicine now; I’ve gone quite far and I intend to see it to completion, but who says I can’t be an “artist-doctor” or a “doctor-artist” eh?
Wednesday, April 4, 2007
All Hail Nigerian Bloggers
I was just going through some blogs by my Nigerian Brothers and Sisters, una too try. Abeg someone give us a clap offering, I’m extremely proud to be Nigerian. Is there something like a Nigerian Fans’ Club? I would love to join to reassert my love, best blogs I read today include:
Waffy Girl
Confused Naija Babe
Calabar Gal2
Mrs Somebody
Baba Alaye
But everybody try sha…l8a
Waffy Girl
Confused Naija Babe
Calabar Gal2
Mrs Somebody
Baba Alaye
But everybody try sha…l8a
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