I could really do with a change of skin right now, last night I was thinking or rather imagining myself, a naked three year old trotting along the beach the gentle breeze caressing my body and the gentle sun rays bathing my entire being.
It was such a nice feeling while it lasted, until I had to come back to the harsh reality that it was just an imagination. Anyway my imaginations are not always thus inclined, its just something I’m passing through. I feel numb to everything going on around me; its just like one minute you’re being tickled with a thousand feathers and you’re giggling your head off and the next minute you just go numb like someone just flicked a switch the wrong way, you can’t feel a thing, you’re scared, really frustrating right?
We sometimes feel we know where we’re headed, we imagine we know what we’re doing and so we set off; 24hrs, 7days…a month, 1year, hey we seem to be doing just fine but wait!, all of a sudden we realize…we took the wrong turn like 10months ago and we need to track back but unfortunately, the sands of time have drifted over our footprints and we’re lost in the middle of nowhere (imagine yourself in a vacuum screaming help! Damn it, no one can hear you), so you get the picture, I don’t want to make such a mistake.
I’ve got this thing for perfection; I imagine, I must have the perfect job, the perfect status, live the perfect way of life, have perfect dates, a perfect wife and then subsequently perfect kids but lately I’ve come to learn that life isn’t perfect and that’s annoying, really annoying and that’s what got me imagining in the first place. OK, Suppose we could all start over again, suppose we could all be three year olds again and then think and act differently, maybe there would be perfect people on earth, perfect dates, perfect everything. But we can’t all be perfect,…or can we? Well, I’ve also learnt one other thing lately,
“perfection is in the eyes of the beholder.”
Think about it…
Friday, March 30, 2007
Thursday, March 29, 2007
My Art Life
My Art life
Well enough about the girls for now cos I think there’re more important things to discuss like my art. Oh I guess that wasn’t made public, well I think I’m a talented graphite artist (meaning I draw with pencil) still striving towards perfection but I’ll let you judge all that.
However, due to the nature of my studies, I tend to have little or no time to pursue and advance my beloved pastime so a lot of my works are somewhat incomplete, coupled with the recent loss of my hard drive (a loss I still mourn) I have very limited no of my works on display.
However I’m approaching my long holidays soon so I think I should be able to do some more.
Well, here’re a few of my works
Remi A commissioned work, but as you can see its somewhat incomplete cos I lost the copy of the picture along with my hard drive. I work with the computer in my art to somewhat blow the pics up for more detail. So like I said its incomplete, thanks to my faulty drive.
My nephewsThis one’s not in graphite. I rendered this in ink, (blue to be precise). Just a spark of inspiration one afternoon and I decided to do a portrait of them of course not life that would be highly impossible as those two are the most “unstable” people you’ve met.
UkpaAnother commissioned work, spent like 3 days on this, luckily I had time to complete this and deliver it.
Didn’t think of it now but in my next post I should be able to let you see the reference pics so you can make your judgments. Criticisms (especially from artists) would be most welcome
Didn’t think of it now but in my next post I should be able to let you see the reference pics so you can make your judgments. Criticisms (especially from artists) would be most welcome
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Well my ISP's are still giving me hell but I'm currently hooking up another deal with a new ISP.
Anyway, back to the gist of the season. I finally hooked up with one of the girls chick #2 (See Previous blog). But I guess I did it out of pressure and I'm already regretting now that I know a bit more about her.
I figured my problem out while talking to my best friend (who incidentally is a girl too!); I discovered that I keep running this background comparison of the girls I date against my Perfect date and I tend to lose interest if they don't measure up. I don't know if this is wrong or right, but its my way of ensuring that I stay happy (that may sound a bit selfish).
Well its happening again, and at the moment chick #2 doesn't seem to be measuring up and again I'm beginning to lose interest again! its a vicious cycle and I don't know when its gonna end but I'll just stick with her for a while (though I'm totally bored) and see how things go.
Its too early to break up right?
Anyway, back to the gist of the season. I finally hooked up with one of the girls chick #2 (See Previous blog). But I guess I did it out of pressure and I'm already regretting now that I know a bit more about her.
I figured my problem out while talking to my best friend (who incidentally is a girl too!); I discovered that I keep running this background comparison of the girls I date against my Perfect date and I tend to lose interest if they don't measure up. I don't know if this is wrong or right, but its my way of ensuring that I stay happy (that may sound a bit selfish).
Well its happening again, and at the moment chick #2 doesn't seem to be measuring up and again I'm beginning to lose interest again! its a vicious cycle and I don't know when its gonna end but I'll just stick with her for a while (though I'm totally bored) and see how things go.
Its too early to break up right?
Saturday, January 6, 2007
Girl Wahala
I think I’ve had it up to here (indicating my head). These days I think I’m gonna go crazy. I’ve got three girls either in or wanting to be in my life right now. You see that’s the problem, I’m undecided as to where they are right now.
1st one happened a couple of months ago, like in October. Well we’ve been friends for a long time (since 2001) more like family friends, because our parents know each other. Anyway I just don’t know if it’s a crush but she suddenly started sending me some suggesting texts ending with phrases like I love you and all that.
Well I hadn’t seen her in a while till one day in October (my birthday) she calls and asked where I was. Believe it or not, I was in the library because I had some serious exams coming up pretty soon. I wasn’t gonna party but since she came around, I decided to take her out someplace. Actually I was expecting her to bring up the issue or something bbut since she didn’t I just sat back and had a nice time.
A few days later she texts me again and still same ending, that’s when I decided to address it. I call her up and bring up the issue. She’s quiet, but since I picked the nail, I guessed I might as well drive it in, so I prod further. Note I wasn’t tripping I just didn’t wanna let a nice girl down so I said we could work things out, U know; I’m game and all that. So that makes her what? My girlfriend? I don’t know about that because I haven’t seen her since even though she calls often (maybe every 3-4 days on the average) and texts? Yeah but not a lot of the love U and all that anymore so that leaves me wondering
Anyway, girl #2. I met that one for the first time like a year ago, a friend of mine introduced us and babe has just been liking me ever since. I tried not to pay her any attention,, see if she might just let me off, U know? But who say! It even got to the extent of saying she was my wife and that we’re going to get married and all that, and me I was just playing along like that, not knowing that…well…I still don’t know…I’m still trying to know.
Well I embarked on the long road of knowing one afternoon. I was in school and she calls me up like can you come over and see me? I’m like OK, maybe. I really didn’t wanna go but anyway when she called like 15 minutes later, I decide to go over and see what’s up. So I get there and I remained in the car and flash her. She promptly comes out and invites me in, mind you, she stays with her parents but I’m like probably they’re not around. Well she tells me she wants to introduce me to her parents and I’m like yeah right.
I still don’t know why I followed her in but I did, we were just about on the porch when I hear a large male voice from the living room, like “where’s that your friend, that you said was coming?” and you know her reply?, I thought so too. Well she says; Dad he’s not my friend, he’s my husband. I’m like what! Anyway, I was already 2 feet deep in the shit so I might as well walk on, which I did into the living. Worst part of the scenario, both her dad and his friend knew my parents. As you would expect, my visit was very short-lived. Anyway, that was just the beginning of a new part of my life cos this babe ever since has not relented in expressing her love for me to the extent that I’m constantly deleting texts, you know when some one sends you like 10 text messages a day. Well that part that gets me wondering is that babe is fine so I want to play, I want a serious relationship, she says she loves me but she doesn’t want it to develop into a serious relationship. Girls out there, could you tell me what all these mean? Cos its leaving me wondering. I saw her today and she was itching to leave, so I let her go. Anyway 10 minutes later I get a text saying she didn’t really want to go and she misses me already. Miss me ke?! About 35mins later she calls to ask if she should come back and see me but I said I was leaving, maybe some other time. I get home about an hour and half later and I get a text from her saying she wants to hear me say I love her. Please what does a bro do abeg? The worst of all these is that my mammy water ex-chick (see previous blog) won’t just let me be. I saw her today but I had to run cos chick #2 was constantly flashing me to announce her presence someplace where we were supposed to meet.
Well I was just reading the text from chick #2 when my ex calls and says she wants to see me (mind U this is like 9pm). See me ke?! I’m nursing a headache, contemplating whether to call chick #2 and trying to get some rest and this girl wan see me? I just told her it wasn’t possible and I’ll see her tomorrow, but this chick no gree, saying she’s depressed, needs to talk to me, an all that. Oya talk now, she says its not phone talk and cuts the call. Exactly 5 mins later she calls again, telling me how serious she is and so and so, and me I stick to my guns and tell her its not possible and she should call me at night when its going to be cheaper and she cuts the call again. 8 mins later, she texts me, telling me how I never understand how one feels, and how she's losing it. yeah! losing it? me I've already lost it oh!
Abeg someone should tell me how to get out of all these cos I'm tired. anyway, 1st things first, I've put my phone off and I think I want lose it cos that would help me to relax or don't you think so?
1st one happened a couple of months ago, like in October. Well we’ve been friends for a long time (since 2001) more like family friends, because our parents know each other. Anyway I just don’t know if it’s a crush but she suddenly started sending me some suggesting texts ending with phrases like I love you and all that.
Well I hadn’t seen her in a while till one day in October (my birthday) she calls and asked where I was. Believe it or not, I was in the library because I had some serious exams coming up pretty soon. I wasn’t gonna party but since she came around, I decided to take her out someplace. Actually I was expecting her to bring up the issue or something bbut since she didn’t I just sat back and had a nice time.
A few days later she texts me again and still same ending, that’s when I decided to address it. I call her up and bring up the issue. She’s quiet, but since I picked the nail, I guessed I might as well drive it in, so I prod further. Note I wasn’t tripping I just didn’t wanna let a nice girl down so I said we could work things out, U know; I’m game and all that. So that makes her what? My girlfriend? I don’t know about that because I haven’t seen her since even though she calls often (maybe every 3-4 days on the average) and texts? Yeah but not a lot of the love U and all that anymore so that leaves me wondering
Anyway, girl #2. I met that one for the first time like a year ago, a friend of mine introduced us and babe has just been liking me ever since. I tried not to pay her any attention,, see if she might just let me off, U know? But who say! It even got to the extent of saying she was my wife and that we’re going to get married and all that, and me I was just playing along like that, not knowing that…well…I still don’t know…I’m still trying to know.
Well I embarked on the long road of knowing one afternoon. I was in school and she calls me up like can you come over and see me? I’m like OK, maybe. I really didn’t wanna go but anyway when she called like 15 minutes later, I decide to go over and see what’s up. So I get there and I remained in the car and flash her. She promptly comes out and invites me in, mind you, she stays with her parents but I’m like probably they’re not around. Well she tells me she wants to introduce me to her parents and I’m like yeah right.
I still don’t know why I followed her in but I did, we were just about on the porch when I hear a large male voice from the living room, like “where’s that your friend, that you said was coming?” and you know her reply?, I thought so too. Well she says; Dad he’s not my friend, he’s my husband. I’m like what! Anyway, I was already 2 feet deep in the shit so I might as well walk on, which I did into the living. Worst part of the scenario, both her dad and his friend knew my parents. As you would expect, my visit was very short-lived. Anyway, that was just the beginning of a new part of my life cos this babe ever since has not relented in expressing her love for me to the extent that I’m constantly deleting texts, you know when some one sends you like 10 text messages a day. Well that part that gets me wondering is that babe is fine so I want to play, I want a serious relationship, she says she loves me but she doesn’t want it to develop into a serious relationship. Girls out there, could you tell me what all these mean? Cos its leaving me wondering. I saw her today and she was itching to leave, so I let her go. Anyway 10 minutes later I get a text saying she didn’t really want to go and she misses me already. Miss me ke?! About 35mins later she calls to ask if she should come back and see me but I said I was leaving, maybe some other time. I get home about an hour and half later and I get a text from her saying she wants to hear me say I love her. Please what does a bro do abeg? The worst of all these is that my mammy water ex-chick (see previous blog) won’t just let me be. I saw her today but I had to run cos chick #2 was constantly flashing me to announce her presence someplace where we were supposed to meet.
Well I was just reading the text from chick #2 when my ex calls and says she wants to see me (mind U this is like 9pm). See me ke?! I’m nursing a headache, contemplating whether to call chick #2 and trying to get some rest and this girl wan see me? I just told her it wasn’t possible and I’ll see her tomorrow, but this chick no gree, saying she’s depressed, needs to talk to me, an all that. Oya talk now, she says its not phone talk and cuts the call. Exactly 5 mins later she calls again, telling me how serious she is and so and so, and me I stick to my guns and tell her its not possible and she should call me at night when its going to be cheaper and she cuts the call again. 8 mins later, she texts me, telling me how I never understand how one feels, and how she's losing it. yeah! losing it? me I've already lost it oh!
Abeg someone should tell me how to get out of all these cos I'm tired. anyway, 1st things first, I've put my phone off and I think I want lose it cos that would help me to relax or don't you think so?
Sunday, December 24, 2006
ISP wahala
Men, I've been out of the scene for so long
can you imagine not being in internet coverage for like 2 weeks. Its really getting on my nerves, and each time I drive by my ISP's I feel like getting in there and doing something really nice like say, burn the place down.
I went to report to them and they were giving me all sorts of canned shit like your session has expired, take this number and call our engineer and all that.
I'm really at my wits end. I had to go to the cybercafe to send this.
Anyway, I guess I'll survive. CYA l8a
can you imagine not being in internet coverage for like 2 weeks. Its really getting on my nerves, and each time I drive by my ISP's I feel like getting in there and doing something really nice like say, burn the place down.
I went to report to them and they were giving me all sorts of canned shit like your session has expired, take this number and call our engineer and all that.
I'm really at my wits end. I had to go to the cybercafe to send this.
Anyway, I guess I'll survive. CYA l8a
ISP wahala
Men, I've been out of the scene for so long
can you imagine not being in internet coverage for like 2 weeks. Its really getting on my nerves, and each time I drive by my ISP's I feel like getting in there and doing something really nice like say, burn the place down.
I went to report to them and they were giving me all sorts of canned shit like your session has expired, take this number and call our engineer and all that.
I'm really at my wits end. I had to go to the cybercafe to send this.
Anyway, I guess I'll survive. CYA l8a
can you imagine not being in internet coverage for like 2 weeks. Its really getting on my nerves, and each time I drive by my ISP's I feel like getting in there and doing something really nice like say, burn the place down.
I went to report to them and they were giving me all sorts of canned shit like your session has expired, take this number and call our engineer and all that.
I'm really at my wits end. I had to go to the cybercafe to send this.
Anyway, I guess I'll survive. CYA l8a
Friday, December 8, 2006
My Ex-girlfriend has "Mammy water spirit"
Oh man this world deep O! I just learnt that my ex has mammy water spirit. Abeg no ask me how I take know…but come to think of it, whether you ask me or not, I go still tell you. The thing fear me O.
Anyway we broke up last year. I broke up with her (reasons best known to me); but over time she kind of healed and we became friends, and I initiated the friendship because I was tripping, even after the breakup. Don’t get me wrong, the girl is fine, light complexioned, cute girl you know; and I was not about to throw all that away just like that.
Well recently we’ve been meeting quite often and we talk about stuff, she’s even more open now than when we were together. OK, back to the story of how I got my info; we met today at our usual meeting spot, got talking and gist come bring gist. She come dey ask me whether I have felt the power of the Holy Ghost before, and whether I would like to feel it. Fear catch me O! I started thinking; am I talking to the personality himself? Well she goes on about her she has felt it many times and so…and so…and as your ever inquisitive brother me I wan find out how come all these experiences. Na im she just tell me say she get mammy water spirit, just like that.
Have you ever been poured a bucketful of ice water on a cold harmattan morning in Jos? Me I haven’t but I think I know exactly how it feels now. At first I thought it was a joke but then she started telling me of her water husband and things…and things…and how the guy comes to visit her in the dream and how they “do” and then she go wake up naked and drenched in real life; and me I’m just there (saying the lord is my shepherd for my mind)
Well I had to leave for my class by 2pm. At least, a good excuse to leave. I not fit even drive properly go back school. All I was thinking of was that I was actually contemplating getting back together with this girl. She even told me again that if we had sex while we were together (which we didn’t luckily for me) I would have become Impotent. Can you imagine? Fine young man like me not being able to get it up? Anyway she has undergone her first delivery session like she told me (that one is story for another day) and the second one is scheduled to hold soon.
My people, I no fit shout up till now, I just dey like iced water about to freeze…seriously, I don’t know what to do. Any advice would be helpful especially on how to get myself out of this because I just got a text from her a few minutes ago telling me how she misses me amongst other things. Miss me Ke!...we just met a few hours ago today. Please how do I get out of this?
Anyway we broke up last year. I broke up with her (reasons best known to me); but over time she kind of healed and we became friends, and I initiated the friendship because I was tripping, even after the breakup. Don’t get me wrong, the girl is fine, light complexioned, cute girl you know; and I was not about to throw all that away just like that.
Well recently we’ve been meeting quite often and we talk about stuff, she’s even more open now than when we were together. OK, back to the story of how I got my info; we met today at our usual meeting spot, got talking and gist come bring gist. She come dey ask me whether I have felt the power of the Holy Ghost before, and whether I would like to feel it. Fear catch me O! I started thinking; am I talking to the personality himself? Well she goes on about her she has felt it many times and so…and so…and as your ever inquisitive brother me I wan find out how come all these experiences. Na im she just tell me say she get mammy water spirit, just like that.
Have you ever been poured a bucketful of ice water on a cold harmattan morning in Jos? Me I haven’t but I think I know exactly how it feels now. At first I thought it was a joke but then she started telling me of her water husband and things…and things…and how the guy comes to visit her in the dream and how they “do” and then she go wake up naked and drenched in real life; and me I’m just there (saying the lord is my shepherd for my mind)
Well I had to leave for my class by 2pm. At least, a good excuse to leave. I not fit even drive properly go back school. All I was thinking of was that I was actually contemplating getting back together with this girl. She even told me again that if we had sex while we were together (which we didn’t luckily for me) I would have become Impotent. Can you imagine? Fine young man like me not being able to get it up? Anyway she has undergone her first delivery session like she told me (that one is story for another day) and the second one is scheduled to hold soon.
My people, I no fit shout up till now, I just dey like iced water about to freeze…seriously, I don’t know what to do. Any advice would be helpful especially on how to get myself out of this because I just got a text from her a few minutes ago telling me how she misses me amongst other things. Miss me Ke!...we just met a few hours ago today. Please how do I get out of this?
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