Imagine

I could really do with a change of skin right now, last night I was thinking or rather imagining myself, a naked three year old trotting along the beach the gentle breeze caressing my body and the gentle sun rays bathing my entire being.

It was such a nice feeling while it lasted, until I had to come back to the harsh reality that it was just an imagination. Anyway my imaginations are not always thus inclined, its just something I’m passing through. I feel numb to everything going on around me; its just like one minute you’re being tickled with a thousand feathers and you’re giggling your head off and the next minute you just go numb like someone just flicked a switch the wrong way, you can’t feel a thing, you’re scared, really frustrating right?

We sometimes feel we know where we’re headed, we imagine we know what we’re doing and so we set off; 24hrs, 7days…a month, 1year, hey we seem to be doing just fine but wait!, all of a sudden we realize…we took the wrong turn like 10months ago and we need to track back but unfortunately, the sands of time have drifted over our footprints and we’re lost in the middle of nowhere (imagine yourself in a vacuum screaming help! Damn it, no one can hear you), so you get the picture, I don’t want to make such a mistake.

I’ve got this thing for perfection; I imagine, I must have the perfect job, the perfect status, live the perfect way of life, have perfect dates, a perfect wife and then subsequently perfect kids but lately I’ve come to learn that life isn’t perfect and that’s annoying, really annoying and that’s what got me imagining in the first place. OK, Suppose we could all start over again, suppose we could all be three year olds again and then think and act differently, maybe there would be perfect people on earth, perfect dates, perfect everything. But we can’t all be perfect,…or can we? Well, I’ve also learnt one other thing lately,

“perfection is in the eyes of the beholder.”

Think about it…

My Art Life

My Art life

Well enough about the girls for now cos I think there’re more important things to discuss like my art. Oh I guess that wasn’t made public, well I think I’m a talented graphite artist (meaning I draw with pencil) still striving towards perfection but I’ll let you judge all that.
However, due to the nature of my studies, I tend to have little or no time to pursue and advance my beloved pastime so a lot of my works are somewhat incomplete, coupled with the recent loss of my hard drive (a loss I still mourn) I have very limited no of my works on display.
However I’m approaching my long holidays soon so I think I should be able to do some more.
Well, here’re a few of my works

Remi

A commissioned work, but as you can see its somewhat incomplete cos I lost the copy of the picture along with my hard drive. I work with the computer in my art to somewhat blow the pics up for more detail. So like I said its incomplete, thanks to my faulty drive.

My nephews

This one’s not in graphite. I rendered this in ink, (blue to be precise). Just a spark of inspiration one afternoon and I decided to do a portrait of them of course not life that would be highly impossible as those two are the most “unstable” people you’ve met.

Ukpa

Another commissioned work, spent like 3 days on this, luckily I had time to complete this and deliver it.

Didn’t think of it now but in my next post I should be able to let you see the reference pics so you can make your judgments. Criticisms (especially from artists) would be most welcome

Well my ISP's are still giving me hell but I'm currently hooking up another deal with a new ISP.

Anyway, back to the gist of the season. I finally hooked up with one of the girls chick #2 (See Previous blog). But I guess I did it out of pressure and I'm already regretting now that I know a bit more about her.

I figured my problem out while talking to my best friend (who incidentally is a girl too!); I discovered that I keep running this background comparison of the girls I date against my Perfect date and I tend to lose interest if they don't measure up. I don't know if this is wrong or right, but its my way of ensuring that I stay happy (that may sound a bit selfish).

Well its happening again, and at the moment chick #2 doesn't seem to be measuring up and again I'm beginning to lose interest again! its a vicious cycle and I don't know when its gonna end but I'll just stick with her for a while (though I'm totally bored) and see how things go.

Its too early to break up right?